Horizonte Vazio

«I miss you like I’m losing my own life/ /I’m drifting to somewhere I can’t find/ /Resistance and the power to let go/ /Of something I can’t control.../ /Forgive me./ /I try to reach you,/ /I am alive but I can’t breathe./ /Oh, so empty, our horizon/ /Of all the dreams that can’t come true.../ /In my thriving glowing fantasies/ /I hide the taste of sin/ /I can’t forget the sweetness of your skin/ /Forgive me for being.../ /.../ /I need to reach you/ /I need to feel you/ /Will you let me in.../ /Into your empty horizon?» Espenæs, Liv

Burnt up, eaten alive... By this sense... this cruel desire. I’d rather rip my heart out... I’d rather go mad, My only wishes are for all the things I’m not meant to have. I’m well aware, You won’t see my face again. You’ll never know just how deeply grateful I am. In my blossomed gardens of fantasy, All those masked sins of sensual cruelty. I hear you, I feel you. I taste the sweetness of your innocent whisper... And no dagger could have stabbed me deeper, Than the thought of watching you go away. Sharp nails on the door... ‘Stay, stay, stay!’. Untamed, dominant, My guiltless smile, oh, so radiant. Emptied horizons of an unattainable bidding, Of what’s left of a bestial, inhuman, sanguinary craving. My thriving illusions of deep belonging...

There was a wolf in my porch / More like a lamb in disguise / I’m the wolf myself. Lust. Yearning. Desire. / Less confused than sleepy / As if a mosquito had bitten my arm / Catatonic, wonderfully dizzy / I felt so sure, now I feel so torn / I wish I was sorry, I wish you knew / Just the way I couldn’t remember you / That night... gloomy autumn night / I felt intoxicated, now I feel contrite / Should have runned after him, / I feel so sorry / «Dearest, come here, drink me instead, merge into me». / He was something new, / More like a dream / He was something cold / He was the softest creature I've ever seen / And I should have known / And now there is blood in my hands / Oh, no, that's just my fallen hair! / And there are patches on my skin / Oh, no, that's probably just me going out of breath. / I feel like God's greatest enemy / I could have set Babylon free / Now I feel so sorry / Now he haunts my dreams / Wouldn’t have been as unwise as it seems / He was the wolf t...